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Neighbour Steve is a piece of shit, to the point I'd like to rap about it
But I can't rap or dance or sing and I can't rhyme for shit so here we go, 
Shut Up Steve, it has been twenty minutes
of non-stop shouting
Shut the Fuck Up 

Less of the casual sexism. Please. Like yes I know it's 'realistic' or whatever but, if I want casual sexism I will go outside and listen to people telling me to smile more or something, please just make them generally jerks rather than jerks who specifically make sexist comments to women

I can make any character wear anything and they will not be uncomfortable in a dress. They will instead be uncomfortable in a moogle suit

EQUALLY SEXUALISED OUTFITS. If i have to wear the shitty lady costume i want the dudes to wear the awful barely-covering anything outfits too. I want them to be sexy and ridiculous together.

Please....get rid of zelda's white dress.....I fucking hate that white dress......the fuckin. shiny white dress. fuck that shit.

ganondorf?? being character???? please.

majora's mask appears and continues a long running tradition of being vaguely ominous and creepy looking but doesn't actually do anything, ever. I never want to know anything about majora unless it's useless and/or hilarious. 

ok listen you can have a player character as an avatar of the player or you can make them an actual character but it is very hard for you to have both aka PLEASE make gameplay match story ok it's not that hard ok ok please do this thing for me. 

I'm serious about the dresses btw mario looks super cute in the wedding dress

I want everyone to be able to wear cute clothes that are variously sexy, cute, badass, and fucking ridiculous.

More ladies. LOTS more ladies.

able to max out character things without romance, but also being able to romance if i want. 

 This is gonna be part of a larger post at some point, but one thing I find extremely interesting is the intersection of how a character is designed, what their actual personality is, and then how the fandom portrays them. 

Okay so, for an example; Kuja from Final Fantasy IX. Kuja is tall. He is described as tall by Garnet, he stands at least a head above her, and his official height is listed as about 7'2". The other facet of his design is that he's pretty- he wears a codpiece, skirt...thing, thigh highs and bares most of his stomach. He's both pretty and tall, physically. If you throw in his garbage-fire of a personality, he's tall, pretty, sarcastic, dramatic, and poetic- without going into huge character analysis, the guy's got a sharp tongue.

In fandom, not so much. He tends to get hit with the big stick of stereotypes, which tend to make him appearance obsessed, prone to shrieking fits, and defenceless. And, he's far from the only character to get it, but I'm always surprised when I go back to FFIX and get to be delighted by the awful trash-baby that he actually IS; stubborn, selfish, horrifically determined, quick-thinking and terrified of his own death. It's part of a wider fandom thing, where initial impressions of a character will almost always overcome what they're actually like in canon. 

I feel that a part of it is just how we, as people, like to fill in the blanks and put people in boxes. And a lot of those boxes tend to be informed by biases eg. the portrayal of Ganondorf as sexually aggressive and stupid, Majora as poorly spoken and loud; that sort of thing. It's a bigger thing I'd like to write about at some point, but, man, writing this at the moment just made me want to go and play FFIX. 

Anyway, I still really like bad guys, bad guys are so much fun, especially when they can be both interesting characters and awful garbage fire shitbabies.

I AM AN IDIOT.

Of course I went through a godamn burnout, I've been pushing myself to finish at least 1 sketchbook per month PLUS digital art PLUS writing PLUS hiding all the NSFW stuff I wanna draw bc I used to work with kids and I can hardly bring the titty sketchbook into kiddy spaces!!!!!

LO AND BEHOLD, OF COURSE I BURNT OUT.

UGGGGHHHHHHH. 

I'm finally playing FFVI! Or FFIII, if you prefer, but either way- the SNES fave of many is finally on its way to my brain hole. Impressions so far are: 

Terra is very cute and I like her
Locke is very cute and I like him
Gonna smooch all them moogles
Edgar flirts a lot and Terra's just baffled.

I'm excited! Gonna try to play a little bit each week, at least. 

WE'RE OFF TO FIGHT THE ENTIRE DEPARTMENT OF WORK AND PENSIONS

HAAAAAAAAAAA they fucking lost my brother's irreplaceable paperwork; the paperwork that was specifically requested back because it's irreplaceable. The paperwork that contains every bit of evidence of his diagnoses for autism, deafness and various other ailments. The paperwork that could kill a small dog if dropped from a sufficent height.

AAAAND they lost it.

I am beyond furious. I am so angry I've looped around to a weird sort of energetic euphoria where I'm ready to tear my shirt off and charge at them, tits out and ready for slaughter. They accuse my brother of lying, they accuse ME of lying, and now they've lost that paperwork, which we've had for OVER 15 YEARS.

For reference, my brother has advanced hearing loss and autism, in addition to TERRIBLE depression and suspected bipolar disorder. And that's not enough for the DWP. I'd love to know what IS enough, considering that apparently LOSING YOUR DAMN LEGS ISN'T.

Sigh. Fuck the DWP.   

I don't want to call it an art block because...I don't think it IS an art block, but I have almost zero ideas I want to create and maybe 0.2% motivation to create them. And, sure, that's probably related to depression (and a long waiting list for therapy, increasing police raids on the area, that fucking neighbour that thinks 1am is a great time to start shouting across the road) but it just feels...a bit more empty? Like I'll open a document and just like, oh, okay, not happening I guess.

Buuuut I do want to try and watch/read/play more stuff so I can try and refill those creative banks. I'm still going to finish inktober, and I'm going to keep writing little snippets of assorted fics (even if they're never finished), but I might use the rest of this year for like...i don't know what to call it; technical development, snippets, learning to draw NC-17 stuff? Something like that. I'd like to be more confident drawing and writing things I like. 

so yeah, if anyone has any recommendations for stuff i should look through, i'd love to hear them! At the moment I think I'll be going through some of my old faves. Maybe I'll write up some little reviews for them too. 

Until then though, I do have the first chapter of a fic I've been planning since BOTW came out and I lost myself to it for like. three months. Because hoo boy, game, you can't give me cute enemies and then NOT let me befriend them.  

ooooooh no

Osomatsu san is back

i have never watched this show, prolly never will, but with the matsu brothers comes

The Drama
 

Accidental characterisation is my favourite characterisation. 

Admittedly, that statement's assuming quite a lot- for all I know, all this stuff which I think is unintentional might've been very well planned out by the writers and they just didn't think to draw attention to it, and I'm being an asshole, but shit son- I love it when gameplay or timelines or just some random stuff leads to a picture of a character with some unlikely traits. 

By far, my favourite one of these is Hylia. According to the dialogue, Hylia is rather short-spoken, to the point, and less poetic than one might expect. She doesn't waste words.

According to the gameplay, Hylia thinks that the best way to gain 'spiritual growth' is to send a child with nothing but the clothes on his back and about twenty insta-kill robots that chase him down with cold, unfeeling gazes. And that she should have him do this four times. It absolutely tickles me. If you're like me and assume that the blue/purple/sheeny stuff in Skyward Sword is also connected to Hylia, then she seems to be a bit of a techie in general- good with building strange machines, bad with metaphorical ideas rather than literal ones.

And then if you factor in Fi, it's even funnier, bc Fi looked at BOTW Link and decided, "you know what? Hylia had a point." and then leaves you in a huge trial, naked and afraid, until you git gud. 

"I offer you this trial, that it may please Hylia"

The monks took over because no one wanted to let Hylia design another trial. 

Depression can fuck the hell off, please and thank you, I am very tired of weight gain and random fits of crippling sadness and not being able to get out of bed. I'm going to sue the concept of depression. fuck you you piece of shit brain.